| Sometimes I wonder about the past...but now I have to just accept it and move on...I'm doing the right thing..just focusing on my school and myself...hoping to become successful soon and finally be proud of myself in what i'm doing...I hope to show everyone that I will be that successful woman and I will be that independent woman and I hope those who chose to leave me and my friendship will regret it later on. Well I haven't written a blog in a long time..so here goes...I'm moving soon to another city...I hope to learn more and gain more..and here's a recent picture of me.  
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| Do you believe that God is going to give that someone to you who will match you perfectly, who will be your description of who you want to marry or love, even though we may not be all perfect..but at least make them to be the most perfect for you?? I don't understand it when people say they care about them when they don't even take time to listen to what the other person is feeling inside or they poke fun at their feelings. If someone truly cared about you seriously, they wouldn't do that, they'd be caring enough to try to understand where you are coming from. And a matter of fact, they would actually listen to your thoughts and feelings, not just shove it aside. Being selfish is not love, being selfless is actually true love, because it came from Jesus first. I really hate it how so many people are so blind with love these days, it makes me sick to the bones, and then finally in the end they have to break up this long term relationship which will mean nothing in the end. I guess people will go through to learn a lot of lessons and mistakes. I know I've been through so many already, I just hope I don't go through the same route I did in the past again. Well let's see I guess this is my definition of truly loving someone:
You lay everything down at their feet for them,
You never think twice about if they are telling the truth,
You are always wanting to hear how their day was and how they feel,
You always rejoice with them and encourage them,
You always try to be positive for them no matter what the circumstances,
You always try to surprise them somehow, someway to make their day better,
You always know inside what they really want,
You always tell them how you are also feeling inside too,
You never want to blame them or make an excuse for why you did something wrong,
You think about every action and word before you do and say,
You are always praying for them every morning, day, and night,
You never want to replace them,
You will always go out of your way for them just to make them smile,
You will always want to be with that person forever no matter what.
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| I am sitting here at work..lately I've been thinking to myself...a lot..about the past. Do you ever regret anything you haven't done in the past? It feels like I've had so many chances to be with someone who I truly wanted to be with, but I never took the initiative, or I never been mature enough to actually tell them that I did, and now they're with someone else...married or what not...I know I'll never find another hmong guy that could actually fit my description of a guy who I would want to be with...and I guess God didn't want me to be with them..and I guess they did not really want to be with me because if they did..they would have tried harder to be with me. I don't know I guess I regret a lot of the stupid things I've done in the past..and I kind of regret not being with them..but now I've lost my chances..and I guess all I have to do is just keep looking forward to the future...I just plan to get my degree...be proud of myself..that I'm still single and I've gotten this far..and I'm not married or I don't have a kid yet... |
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